I have been hearing your name since I attended a Catholic High School; I think there was even a class back then that was named after you, but I have a little confession to make, you were not appealing to me, I was not attracted to you. I like to blame my ignorance about you for this attitude of mine. But I was thankful that I was given an opportunity to know you better. I have learned many things about you in our class and I hope this will start a deeper friendship between the two of us.
I hope it will not be too late for me to know you better but one thing is for sure, you have ignited a fire within me that makes me desire to be a missionary like you.
In our class, I heard that you had a not-so-good intention in joining the priesthood because you saw priesthood at the beginning as a way for you to bring back the glory of your family’s name. Your life is an example that motivations, through the grace of God, can be purified. I wonder what made it so easy for you to say yes to go for a mission, even as a last minute replacement; was it because of your curiosity and spirit of daring? Was it because of your sheer love for mission and for God? Or was it because your Society emphasizes obedience so much?
In the movie we have seen, the crab with a cross asked a question: Where is the glory in all that? It is the same question that I give you now, where is the glory in all that you have experienced, all in the name of God?
In your time, we who live in the oriental were regarded by Westerners based on the norms of the West, a practice which led to abuses. St. Francis, how do you see us Asians? When going to a mission, how do you strike a balance between your own culture and the culture of the host country?
I am so impressed with your friendship with Ignatius. Looking at how you longed for his presence in your difficult moments made me appreciate more your humanity; on the other hand, your friendship with Jesus inspires me. The way you cling to him blindly especially in trying times convinced me that you are not only a missionary, you are also a mystic. I believe that it was your being a mystic that sustained you even in the midst of dangers in your missionary journeys and in your apparent failure of not reaching China. Your life is a testimony to the fact that we can do great things if we allow God write our own story.
I wish to journey with you,
Ellis